I told myself not to blog anymore. But there're just too much unhappiness going around. I have a test at 10am. And it's 2.30am. I know i need my sleep. But i also know, that i probably won't be able to sleep well, cause i haven't been able to sleep well for the past few days. i feel so screwed. why am i so bothered when there are more things for me to worry about?

basically, room allocation for next academic year took place few days ago. and i believe, that everyone who was involved was unhappy.

wat really matters to people? friends? the level they stay on? this was the two big issue besides all the 'i have more points therefore i can displace you from your current level' and everything that somehow seemed 'unfair' to some party.

why can't things be resolved? points? friends? room location? is it true that the higher the level the better the rooms? is it true that the lower levels are the not-so-happening levels? nice view? more privacy? all these 'perks' or 'disadvantages' of different rooms and given the 'freedom to choose' based on points, and quota made it hard to satisfy everyone. there were no one solution to satisfy everyone. and different people refused to give in due to different circumstances.

but wat is exactly the point?

after staying 6 years, in 3 different hostel. this is just one big absurd thing that i've encountered. i've never got a chance to choose rooms back in dunman and victoria hall. but i've made the best-est friends out of the 4 years in those hostels. and hostel really meant one-big-family back then. we were split up to different levels, different blocks. and yet the bonds that we built was so strong, that all of us are still best-buddies till now.

and there was so little effort (or maybe not all all) that needs to be done to create a nice, warm and friendly living environment. and people were happy. at least we were happy, or at least I was happy.

i think we should just count on our blessings. accept things as they are, and make the best out of everything. there needs to be a level of compromise. after all, we're all living in the same block. it doesn't help if we continue to fight over the rooms now. cause this will only make things awkward when we come back to stay after the holidays. it is already obvious, after all these. that all these fightings will only break friendships. and make things ugly. and upset the blk head, and your blkmates. and there is no one perfect solution to this problem. cause somehow, some parties will be affected. so, just minimize the lvl of unhappiness. try to look at things at a different perspective.

while all these are going on, i have friends who are worrying about accomodation. because they were not given rooms on campus. and mind you people, we are international students who don't have a home to go back to. and the expensive room rates out there are not helping much either. people worry, cause their living expenses will be doubled just to pay off rents.

so our problems are actually trivial compared to others. and it's exam period. there're more impt things to focus on now. just put an end to all the shuffling of rooms/levels. cause enough is enough.

and i teared when i flipped back at my photo album. cause i really miss life back then. when things were much simpler. cause no matter which room you stay in, you know that you always have your friends with you. even when you stay at a level different different from the rest. cause everyone's room are just within walking distance.