had my 2nd paper today. it was bad. super bad. i left half of the paper blank. i still couldn't believe it. it's a subject that i spent most time on. sigh.

was super depressed. and i needed a break from studying after all these weeks of mugging. thankfully i still have good friends who's willing to come out to 'chill'.. haha. had ice cream at cold rock in holland v with cousin eddie. then went over to the yoghurt ice cream place. basically i had ice cream for dinner. haha. and at least the small little cup of ice cream manage to make my day.

and i was sad yesterday. cause one side of my windmill (okay, it's not mine.. it's jungseong's.. but it has been with me for months alr. haha.) fell off my window when i was studying yesterday. and i went to few levels to look for it. went down to 1st lvl, to look for it at the bushes and all. couldn't find it. even posted on blkcdiary about the missing piece.


and guess wat? joyceh found it! hahaha. wat a wonderful blk head. haha. and i really thought i couldn't get it back. felt so guilty cause it wasn't even mine. yayy! now that the missing piece is back, the windmill is turning again! this is a good end to a depressing day. and i shouldn't even think of 2125 anymore. just pray hard hard tat everyone else dun score tat well.


one last paper before the holidays. i have yet to have plans for the hols. anyone has a job to offer me?

don't they know tat it's exam period?

i was studying in my neighbour's room just now.. when i heard noises. and i saw people running past the room with waterguns and pails.. and i heard girls screaming. i was thinking, "shit. ponding again..."

i got off the chair to go back my room wanting to close my door, cause it was wide open. (the other time they ponded ppl outside my door and ended up with a puddle of water outside my door..)

and i dunno how/why.. the whole group of them carried me to the toilet, threw me under the sink (where blk auntie does her laundry there every morning.. freaking gross..), and on the freaking tap.

WAT THE HELL... i was pissed enough alr, cause i was trying to study, and they came to distract me with all the noise.. and i just bathed.. and i was tired, after spending whole day at the lib.. not to mention, the stress, cause i feel super lag in studies. AND MY FIRST PAPER IS IN 3 DAYS TIME. freak.

assholes. and i'm talking about 24-25 yrs old guys. argh. so pissed. sheares hall guys suck.

I told myself not to blog anymore. But there're just too much unhappiness going around. I have a test at 10am. And it's 2.30am. I know i need my sleep. But i also know, that i probably won't be able to sleep well, cause i haven't been able to sleep well for the past few days. i feel so screwed. why am i so bothered when there are more things for me to worry about?

basically, room allocation for next academic year took place few days ago. and i believe, that everyone who was involved was unhappy.

wat really matters to people? friends? the level they stay on? this was the two big issue besides all the 'i have more points therefore i can displace you from your current level' and everything that somehow seemed 'unfair' to some party.

why can't things be resolved? points? friends? room location? is it true that the higher the level the better the rooms? is it true that the lower levels are the not-so-happening levels? nice view? more privacy? all these 'perks' or 'disadvantages' of different rooms and given the 'freedom to choose' based on points, and quota made it hard to satisfy everyone. there were no one solution to satisfy everyone. and different people refused to give in due to different circumstances.

but wat is exactly the point?

after staying 6 years, in 3 different hostel. this is just one big absurd thing that i've encountered. i've never got a chance to choose rooms back in dunman and victoria hall. but i've made the best-est friends out of the 4 years in those hostels. and hostel really meant one-big-family back then. we were split up to different levels, different blocks. and yet the bonds that we built was so strong, that all of us are still best-buddies till now.

and there was so little effort (or maybe not all all) that needs to be done to create a nice, warm and friendly living environment. and people were happy. at least we were happy, or at least I was happy.

i think we should just count on our blessings. accept things as they are, and make the best out of everything. there needs to be a level of compromise. after all, we're all living in the same block. it doesn't help if we continue to fight over the rooms now. cause this will only make things awkward when we come back to stay after the holidays. it is already obvious, after all these. that all these fightings will only break friendships. and make things ugly. and upset the blk head, and your blkmates. and there is no one perfect solution to this problem. cause somehow, some parties will be affected. so, just minimize the lvl of unhappiness. try to look at things at a different perspective.

while all these are going on, i have friends who are worrying about accomodation. because they were not given rooms on campus. and mind you people, we are international students who don't have a home to go back to. and the expensive room rates out there are not helping much either. people worry, cause their living expenses will be doubled just to pay off rents.

so our problems are actually trivial compared to others. and it's exam period. there're more impt things to focus on now. just put an end to all the shuffling of rooms/levels. cause enough is enough.

and i teared when i flipped back at my photo album. cause i really miss life back then. when things were much simpler. cause no matter which room you stay in, you know that you always have your friends with you. even when you stay at a level different different from the rest. cause everyone's room are just within walking distance.

this shall be the last post till exams are over. i shall stop myself from wasting time online. last week of hell. and everything will be over. anyways, i had a haircut with erlin on fri. and the sad thing is, i paid $35 for it at jean yip, and yet no one realized that i cut my hair. boo. so sad. but i'm glad that i cut it. cause it was getting a bit too messy.

i asked peklyn for more brains. and this is wat she sent me through msn! haha. see, can transfer brains online. how power? haha.

i need somemore brians. anyone willing to lend me their brains? i can't seem to rmb or understand the things that i study. can i be picky to ask for the smart ones only? haha.

"YEANCHINGGGGG!!!pls get out of that NUS cannnn..hahahah"

yes, that's what i've been told by daryl on facebook. (N/B: it's THAT nus. hahah..) argh. i also want. i can't wait to get out of this place. argh. i can't wait for exchange. get me out of this place. get me out of sg. i've been staying here too long.

exams in less than 3 weeks time. but tests, projs, assignments still getting into the way.

someone made my day today. =D haha. with just 50cents. :P

it's seetha's birthday today. and i miss her a lot. haven't seen her for almost a year already. dunno how she's doing right now. probably gonna give her a call later. and it was zee's bday few weeks ago too. i was too caught up with things to really talk to her also.

i miss the bunch of us back in dunman hostel. that was like 6 years ago. and among the 4 of us, i'm the only who's still left in singapore. i dunno whether it's a good thing or not. but i really love this bunch of friends. friends who never fail to make me laugh whenever i see them, friends who'll give me a big hug everytime i see them, friends who'll make countless surprise visits to singapore (she would even skip school to come visit us..), friends got punished together for coming back late. friends who stayed up with me all night at east coast park just to escape curfew, friends who'll stay up all night just to chat etc.

i bet we'll always rmb the punishment from mr ang, the times we played bridge with seetha's lousy guessing skills (heh..), the bbq at east coast, the meals + gossipping session with mrs gan and the anticipation for the arrival of desiree or denzel etc. friendship tat'll last forever i hope. =)

i just hope that we can see each other more often. :'(

just some nice pictures to post. =)

projects projects and more projects. this is how they're killing us. after spending countless numbers of hours on the stupid CN2125, CN2116 and CN3124 projects, we finally see some light. finally having more time so that i can start studying. finally feeling that bit sense of freedom (before i start studying again tmr..)

and all these come only after kumar started out the project without giving us a flow rate to the question, making us crack out head on how to even start the project, then giving us a flow rate 1,370,310 lb/hr which was supposed to be 1,370,310 lb/DAY (it makes damn a big difference to our calculation and made us recalculate like 10000 times just to realise that it was wrong), then changing our shell outlet temperature on tuesday when we finished our whole calculation..

and also uddin, who took one whole freaking sem, to release a project, 3 weeks before reading week, when everyone else is rushing to finish up the other 2 projects. and he tried to make every groups' values different. by making our flow rate different. how different? group 1, flow rate= 10m3/s, group 2: 11 m3/s, group 3: 12 m3/s etc.. that's like damn different lah!

and zll, who added extra information like 3 times. that we had to change our program 3 times. and telling other groups, that we can't assume constant density while the question paper stated explicitly that we should assume constant density. argh.

why can't these prof/mentor/teaching assistants try out their design questions before giving it to us and release questions at the start/middle of the sems so that we can work on one project at a time. it's bad enough that we're the first batch of students to suffer from all the design projects. they must make us die and end up screwing up our exams. and in the end, the mediocre students like me, who's alr in a very bad state, to die even more. cause its 3 weeks before my first paper. and i'm as good as not attending the whole sem. i feel so dead. i dun even know how to survive this 4 weeks. it's worse than 4 weeks in hell.

argh, i'm complaining again! i can't help it. i should be studying in stead of wasting my time complaining here. 4 more weeks to determine my life for the next 2 yrs. sigh.

despite all these, i'm thankful for few things!

• i'm thankful for smart project group mates. who can read through perry's and coulson and kern. to figure out all the graphs, equations, correlations etc
• group mates who are so super efficient, they really make things so much easier. we tried to specialize. (although specialization didn't really work out very well towards the end...)
  
• group mates who share junk food. i dunno how much junk food we munched on till szechao decided to buy healthy food like bananas!
• group mate who let me drive his car, while the other group mates were in the car! I DROVE DANIEL'S CAR! although it's only from pgp to sheares. haha. but it's my first driving experience in singapore! hahaha. thanks for trusting my driving skills. haha.
  
• and i'm thankful that i know 4 more new ppl in my batch! haha.
  
• not to forget to be thankful for the existence of coffee which helped to keep me awake most of the time.
  

we spent total of about 60-70 hrs on 2 projects. and another separate 10 hrs on the other project. i'm so glad that it's over.

for ppl who haven't seen me around, this is wat i've been doing for the past whole month. it's not that i wanna live in my own world. i have no choice. and i just want this sem to be over.