it has been a terrible week.
monday, lead singer for this sunday's concert told us that she can't make it on sun. so we had to find a replacement and prac watever that we've been learning for the past few months. it felt terrible. really terrible. the disappointment and the feeling that all your efforts have been wasted. thankfully val agreed to help. really thankful for that. and after all the intensive prac for the past few days, it turned out rather well. =)
then had proj meeting. for heat exchanger design. i was super lost. i felt stupid. i didn't know wat was going on. and i felt bad for the group. we were going no where. sigh.
and also the proj for catalytic naphta reforming. same case. i really need to spend some time to read up on the readings and materials.
tues, had 7 + 2 hrs of lessons. wasn't in the right state of mind to do anything else at night.
wed, went for the interhall bash. i went late and i came back early. i know i shouldn't go. cause i had a lot of things to do. but i just wanted to de-stress. although i spent only abt 2 plus hrs there, it was enough to add on to the series of unfortunate events this week. the drinks were sucky (oh wells, wat to expect.. it was free..) and some bastard puked on me on the way back. right before
we reached hall in the chartered bus. seriously wtf. it wasn't a lot. but it was disgusting. how sueh. only this kinda sueh things can happen to me. and the worst thing is, i didn't know the person, and he was such a bastard that he haven't apologized even after 3 days. wat a jerk. argh. i'll rmb him and i will give him the bitchy look everytime i see him in hall. argh. still so pissed.
and to add on to all these shitty things, my comp have to give me problems. i can't view my webcasts on IE. brought it to the computer centre in sch, they tried to do a lot of things. still couldn't solve the prob. they asked me to format my comp. argh. so reluctant to do so. it'll take me so long to back up my things.
and i was so disappointed with my tuttee (is there such a word?). everytime i go over to give him tuition, he'll never complete his work. the other day he had work that was due 3 weeks ago. i felt that i'm wasting my time everytime i go teach. and i was very disappointed with myself for not being able to guide him well. i'm spending 2 times a week for this tuition. i feel that it's not worth my time (although i get paid,my only source of income at the moment).. i dun feel like teaching anymore. but i'll be such a bitch if i just stop now. he's in sec 4 now. will be having o lvls at the end of the year.
mentoring prog also not making my life easy. can't find volunteers. i'm having a shortage of manpower at the moment. and all the current volunteers quitting one by one cause they can't commit. the ppl that i asked all told me that they can't commit or they're not interested. the ppl who came for interview pulled out in the end also. and i think my mentee is not happy with me also.
seems like i can't handle ALL the things that i have at hand well. which makes me question myself for doing the things that i do. for the sake of doing it? or for wat?
sigh. so depressing. i just needed to whine. ahh. i'm not supposed to be whining so much i know. but just can't help it. i'll be fine after i whine. and i'm really grateful for friends ard me. for the tags on my tagboard, the sms-es to show concern, the note i find on my table together with sweets and chocs just to cheer me up, the encouragements and hugs. so touched. =)
note from emily that was on my table when i came back my room just now. she left 'a collection of all things sweet' to sweeten up my life.
the mail that i received from alice.
and the cd and lip balms that came in the mailand finally. someone who made my day today. ana, the resident fellow's daughter. was playing in my room. she's so cheerful, so bubbly, so cute. she gave me a kiss on the cheek and a hug. something that i needed today.
concert on sun at ucc, and wed at fort canning park. anyone interested to come watch? both are free! haha.
