work piling up, but just dun have the mood to do..
feel super 'nua'..

there are problems to be solved, but dun feel like making the call to ask how things are going..
feel super 'sien'..

and the worst thing is knowing that there are things that i need to do, but i'm not doing it; and there are also things that i should not do, yet i'm doing it...
sighh.. feel super guilty..

and i wasted my whole weekend stoning in my room.. but at least the last few days was quite eventful.. thurs mid autumn festival with kent ridge hall, fri su san's visit, choir performance, blk c's own mid autumn festival celebration ( it was sooo long since i saw ppl get thrown into the pond.. hahah.. those were the days when bday guys and chernyih get 'ponded' in vs koi pond.. oh, but there was a handphone accident.. they removed a spectacle box from edwin's pocket, mistaken it for his handphone.. there goes his 2 month old handphone.. ) joey's bday celebration, and the chat till 4am in val's room (which made me woke up late for mentoring the next morning...) sat had lunch with the other mentors mentoring at haven home, did a bday present that i'm gonna send on mon, and i chatted with zee! she was telling me that it snowed in moscow yesterday.. how amazing.. i haven't seen real snow in my life.. hahah.. and she said she would send some snow to me.. hahaha.. same old zee! the one who would wear miniskirt out when it's snowing.. really miss her so much..

and i feel super no life.. my life revolves around hall and classes.. but well, there is always extra motivation and ppl who'll always make my day..! heh..

and special thanks to few ppl who cheered me up.. =) thanks loads..

hmms.. i still need to clean my fan.. it's damn dirtyy.. but i can't reach.. blame my short legs.. that talk cock king (tck) edwin promised to help me clean.. but he's not back in hall yet..

wheee.. had my first choir performance in 3 yrs.. it's the most stress free performance.. since we only sang in the com hall.. and only one song.. but i really enjoyed it.. choir is so far the only thing that i'm looking forward to apart from everything else that's going on.. at least it keeps me going.. and maybe because the people in choir are super friendly.. and the sops are pretty united! yay! we rock! hahah.. and well, someone made my day! wheeee.. still so happy.. hahahahah..

how can ppl in nus survive without caffeine?
how can ppl in nus have consistent meal times?
how can ppl who stay in hall have more than 4 hrs of sleep a day?

Hmmmm... Today's presentations are more or less quite interesting. Then again, i'm listening now to the third meat presentation today. I think by the end of this lesson, I'll be super informed of the quality and colour of meat. Different types of meat, mind you. Pork, beef, chicken and blah blah blah. All groups have more or less the same points. We get it! You must cook meat properly! Now i'm starting to feel hungry. Darn.

i just accidentally deleted everything i wrote.Blast this phone with its lousy keypad. (eh.. how come blame my phone ehh...) I am not going to retype everything i say just like how everyone repeats their points which have already been presented by some other forsaken group. Oh woe is me! As i was saying, its not like i can go stone the manufacturers that are poisoning me with their chemicals. If it s not bad wnough i'm being poisoned, i now have to do research and present it! I have to present how manufacturers are poisoning the whole world so that they can rule this miserable polluted earth. Seriously, i can't imagine why they would want this earth which is quite bad shape already. Then again, not all are bad. I still do have some sense in me you know, at least i still have a heart and cosider the ones who preserve the food for the greater good of mankind. But woe be to those who poison! I rest my case.

Food security and safety is so darn boring. Remind me never to take this module. I should warn people who dislike bio to never ever in their life take this module or else woe be to them. Unless you have vested interest in how plants breathe and how plants eat, which, in no way affects your life, please stay as far away from this dready module. The lecturer is quite boring as well and gives you empty notes to encourage you to take initiative and make your own notes. I sadly, enjoy spoon feeding so its not a good thing for me. Did you know that vegetables cannot ripen? Did you know that people are starving in this world? Sigh. The perils of the world are studied by us! Its not like we can do much to make a difference anyway. Why do we even bother taking this module? Are we going to get on an airplane and fly to africa to save the soon to be dead children? Yeah right, call me when that day happens.

3 days of slacking.. now back to work again..

tmr will be a better day.. cause today was totally crap.. all shit stuff can happen all at one go.. but well, after today, i'll be fine.. and i'm glad there are ppl ard me who i still can whine too.. hahha.. the walk fr hall to engin + lunch + walk fr YIH back to hall + a small bottle of bacardi + a short chat + singing sessions with kane with yeehaun playing on his guitar + the yeanching yeehaun and kathy band.. these few combination of things made my day.. phew.. the day is over..

had my last paper just now.. i'm supposed to feel relieved since it's over.. but i'm not.. cause i know there's a lot of catching up to do.. and there's more work piling up.. 1 presentation to prepare.. 1 position paper to research on... and a lot of tutorials to do.. choir and geyao presentation next week and the following week respectively.. sighh..

all i can do is sighh.. and start work.. which makes me wonder, what would life be if i'm not in NUS.. i dun think i'll be soooo busy.. but well, i've got no choice.. tt's life.. and it sucks..

anyway.. happy belated bday to my big bro.. he turned 21 yesterday! they had a bday party at home to celebrate.. and i wasn't ard.. *sobz.. that's also life when u're away fr home..

my whole day was just super busy.. had econs lec fr 10am to 12pm.. then critical thinking class fr 12 to 2.. after that had a project meeting fr 2 to 3 plus.. went back hall.. changed and went for softball training fr 4 to 7pm.. reached back hall after softball training ard 7.15pm.. ta pao-ed dinner then came up to bathe.. after bathing didn't even have time to eat the ta pao-ed dinner.. then had ge yao practice.. till 9 plus.. was super shagged by then.. went down for 'supper' at 10 plus.. met sheena.. haven't seen her for so long liao although we're both in nus.. after supper me and kathy went to yeehaun's room.. and he was playing his guitar.. so we stayed there to listen to him play while we sing.. then he came to my room cause mingli left her keyboard with me.. so i was playing the melody on the keyboard while yeehaun plays the accompaniment on his guitar.. hahaha.. sounded quite good.. hahah. we played like songs fr all my 3 files.. hahah.. 3 whole hours spent.. blerghh.. and i was supposed to be catching up on webcast for the past 2 weeks.. haha.. how to find time eh?

it's been a month since zee left for russia.. haven't contacted her since then.. and out of a sudden, i received a sms fr her.. after replying her sms, my phone rang! she actually called! hahaha.. it was because i changed my number, and didn't let her know. so she was curious abt the mysterious singapore number who sms-ed her.. she hung up after a while and called back using idd card.. so tt it won't be so ex.. and she was telling me stuff bout her new environment.. she seem to be having a lot of fun, which is good for her.. so happy after talking to her.. wheeee.. =) miss her so much.. esp after going out so much with her during my 8 months break..

for once when i feel like blogging i somehow dunno wat to blog abt.. hahah..

hmms.. i'm just too tired of mugging.. sighh.. had maths test yesterday.. and guess wat? i got 7 out of 12.. hahah.. well, it's not that good but i'm quite satisfied with it.. since i felt like shit after the paper.. and i'm not good at guessing answers.. haha.. i guessed 6 out of the 12 questions.. its mcq btw.. and out of the 6 i only got 1 correct.. hahha.. that's less than the probability of getting the right answer le.. sighh..

and material science test on thurs.. another sucky paper.. i dun understand why we must study about stupid atoms that we can't even see.. it's not visible to the naked eye! and the notes given is barely 20% of the stuff in the textbook..

ok fine.. i'm just whining.. as usual..

oh, and i visited d blk of kent ridge hall yesterday.. another fun place to go disturb ppl.. so many ppl i know there.. huilian, shili, shinfei, yeekiat, richmond, jiannhooi.. i was talking to jiannhooi after not seeing him for years.. haha.. the last time i really talked to him was in sec 3 or so.. haha..

and i get all sorts of comments about my new hairstyle.. 'look so old', look more childish', 'so funky', 'prettier', 'look so different', 'new look kee zhang..', 'wahh.. u very stress is it? how come go cut your hair till so short.. ', 'for a moment i thought u were shinfei', 'look like u when u were in vj', 'eh, don't look so like kee zhang anymore..' etc etc..

went back to klang for few days.. met up with eunice and su san.. it's always great to meet up with good friends.. i miss having these ppl in hall.. things are just so different now..

chatted with alice too! it's been soooo long since i last talked to her.. and she finally reveal who was the guy tt she was having a crush on last year.. after 1 yr of persuasion.. hahaha.. and alice, 389 days more.. hahaha.. u know wat i mean.. we shall go pressurrize dwee.. her dateline earlier.. hahah..

oh, and quite obvious fr the photos.. i cut my hair..