i dun usually curse but i'm just so freaking pissed.. was filling up some online scholarship application since 3 hrs ago.. and suddenly the whole screen went blank and all my stuff went missing.. ARGH.. wtf! it's the same kind of feeling when i accidentally deleted all my photos from my camera after ASEAN dance.. wasted my time sia.. ok, i wasn't filling up the application for the whole 3 hrs.. was trying to multitask.. hehe.. was chatting too.. but still.. i stayed up whole night just for a blank page!

was at the uk education fair in KLCC today with my sis.. suddenly i just heard somebody went, "is that you yeanching?" when i turned ard i was kinda shocked to see kevin kong.. i just replied with a hi and walked away. my sis scolded me for being very unfriendly... haha.. but then it's kevin kong.. i got nothing much to talk to him. haven't seen him since our malaysian gathering after O's. i still can rmb how he asked us, 'is there some prejudice against me?' only huiyi did bothered to answer his question. the rest of us practically ignored him. hehe.. i know we were evil, but i rmb him as the one who always talks abt results.. oh well.. actually the malaysian gathering did bring back some memories.. ignore owern day, the anti-kevin kong day, the wax dripping session among the guys, the truth and dare game where owern was asked to walk into 7-11 to ask, "where is 7-11?" "oh, so this is 7-11, wat time does it closes?" and tianglim was asked to beg for s$1, the night when jolene and kongjien came hand in hand.. hehe.. the night when we had bbq under the rain, the night when joonyeng got drunk, etc.. great old times with the east-coast-clan (ecc) when huiyi, jolene, eunice were still among the gang.. after tt we didn't really had any gathering with these few ppl anymore.. hmm.. i thought su san was supposed to organise a road trip? haha.. wat happened eh?

i've been rather forgetful these days.. first, i forgot zee and emma's bday which was supposed to be on the 14th.. wished them on the 20th.. 6 days late.. then i was reminding seetha abt fongkai's bday few days before, and i forgot abt it myself.. oops.. just now i was sms-ing jiayong to ask abt wat present to get for pinky's bday next week, she told me, 'oh, we haven't got any presents for caiyun..' i completely forgot tt her bday was on the same day as fongkai.. so paiseh.. sigh.. i think i need a new organizer.. or not have to make use of the reminder on my phone..

went out for a movie with fongkai yesterday.. watched 'date movie'.. it was damn funny.. didn't stop laughing from the start till the end of the movie.. haha.. lame and funny.. then we met wanfen for dinner.. ate at this very ex restaurant.. the bill was like RM100++.. =X fongkai wanted to treat us but in the end we still pd him some lar.. at least yesterday was spent outside instead of stoning at home.. have been doing practically nothing for the past whole week.. maybe i should learn from yeekiat.. make friends with the walls at home.. 3 of my neighbours renovating their houses at the same time.. damn noisy.. make me wanna go out even more.. but have to be stuck at home most of the time.. sigh.. besides my dad doesn't want me to work... sometimes i dun really understand him eh.. he rather let me stay at home most of the time doing nothing than letting me work.. maybe i should pursuade him another time..

me, su san, owern, hongjin, eddie, kailun, jeffrey before collecting our results

me and seetha..

me and some classmates having swensons ice cream after collecting results

disappointing dessert place

swensons ice cream again

have been rather lazy for the past whole week. dun really feel like doing much things since i came back fr s'pore.. dunno why.. have been sleeping, eating, stoning most of the time.. the rest of the time i've been running errands for my mum.. eg, gg to office, gg to bank, gg to so-and-so's office etc etc.. basically practicing on my driving skills too since i've been driving her ard.. oh, i almost bang a car when i was reversing the other day.. phew..nv notice the car coming from behind.. haha.. a bit blur arh these days.. i dunno why but tv is not appealing.. maybe because i'm sick of fighting for the tv controller with my brother.. cartoon network, disney channel and nick aren't really my cup of tea.. sick of watching stupid cartoons like i am weasel, mr bean, spongebob.. one of my friend offered me a job.. as an assistant at a dental clinic.. she's been working there for 3 months alr.. and she's also offering to fetch me to the work place.. it'll only be twice or thrice a week... but one working day would stretch up to 12 hrs if there are a lot of patients.. so i'm a bit reluctant on tt part.. but the rest of the job sounds rather ok.. at least it doesn't take up my whole week.. and i'll still have time to slack.. it pays rather well too (msian standard, i know i can get better pay in s'pore).. RM5/hr... i think if i'm not being lazy, by next week i'll start working alr..

went cycling at east coast with mingli at 12pm.. ended up with sunburn.. haha.. so my face is a bit redder than usual.. =S just hope tt it doesn't peel.. dun think it'll be tt bad.. hehe.. went back to her house to bathe.. then we met the rest of our classmates at eunos mrt and went to visit miss su.. kinda shock to see her condition.. she looks a bit weak.. she was desribing to us abt the pain tt she had to go through for chemo.. she was very encouraging... especially when she told me not to feel so sad for my c6 for gp..

was at TM waiting for elvina.. then i met vanessa and farhana.. i've been trying to arrange a time to meet farhana but always end up not meeting her due to various reasons.. was kinda surprised to see her.. fated to meet her b4 i go back.. haha.. so we were walking ard TM while i was waiting for elvina.. and yupz, elvina is still the same old elvina.. was great to talk to her again.. although she said tt i am more 'centil' now... haha..

i can't believe i actually cried when i read those words..

sent cindy, dwee, dodo and lita off today.. sigh.. dunno when will be the next time i'll see these few ppl... kinda sad.. just hope tt all of us stay in NUS? haha. then get to see each other in s'pore sometime in july! haha.. we ate swensons ice cream before they left! haha.. dun think i'm gonna eat those icecreams for the next few months.. swensons in kl are damn ex.. and i dun even know where to find swensons.. i'll be gg back to klang on thurs.. got my tix liao.. so i'll have one more day in s'pore..

met emma and simin for dinner after sending the indonesians off.. made them come to the airport.. since i'm alr there.. hehe.. we ate fish and co for dinner.. it was great to catch up with them.. haven't really talked to them for quite some time.. both of them seem to be doing quite fine with their jobs.. but as usual, ppl will always have complaints abt their job.. haha.. i'm one of the very good example.. hehe..

finally finished applying for NUS and NTU.. took a whole day to settle all the application stuff.. this will be one of the very last few application stuff to do.. still got The Star Education fund and Shell scholarship to apply for then i'm done.. see which one i can get lar.. most likely gonna stay in NUS alr..

met my cousin for dinner... she ends up paying the bill again.. sigh.. always make me feel so bad eh.. we were having dinner together with the indonesians since we left fr vj after the application together.. so she sort of treated the rest of them also.. so paiseh..

spent my whole sat in orchard.. practically walked ard the whole of orchard.. was with the indo gals the whole day.. but met up with mingyun for dinner.. then accompanied her to shop ard far east.. she's working in starhub, answering customers' calls on queries and complaints.. and she seems to be enjoying her job.. except for the stress.. according to her, she have been deprived to shop ard orchard.. so she was quite happy to be able to walk ard orchard on a sat night.. haha.. she was nice to offer some advice.. but then i'm not bold enough to follow her advice.. i guess this is just how things will end.. and there'll definitely be regrets..

got a lvls results 2 days ago.. satisfied with my results.. have been meeting up with a lot of ppl these few days.. most ppl are back in s'pore.. so get to see them.. sad to say, i've been meeting up with non-singaporeans.. singaporeans seem to be rather busy with their own activities.. or maybe they can't even be bothered to meet ppl like me.. only few stayed to go out after resutls.. most of them left with their respective bf/gf without saying anything.. but the rest of us who bothered to stay actually went to changi airport for swensons icecream! whee.. haha.. haven't eaten ice cream for quite some time, so tt ice cream did make me feel better.. haha.. i went back to my uncle's place after tt to bathe and change then i stayed overnight at lucky plaza apt with the indonesian gals.. we played cards, watched tv, etc till 2-3 am.. feels good to hang out with them as it might be the very last time tt we'll be meeting as a grp.. some of them will be gg overseas n stuff.. so might be diff to meet in future.. unless one of us marry some rich man who doesn't mind to sponsor my air ticket to meet them in indo.. haha.. we went to bugis the following day to shop.. managed to walked ard bugis fr 11 plus till 6 plus.. a lot of hours of shopping... legs were damn tired after tt.. came back home and slept straight after i bathed..

walked a lot again today.. with heels.. so my feet kinda hurt a little... but kinda used to the pain since i started teaching cause had to wear heels most of the time.. intended to get some info fr the career fair at suntec but it turned out to be rather disappointing.. practically got no info at all.. so walked ard suntec aimlessly.. found rather interestin place in suntec.. like the toys'r'us, and the sky garden.. oh, and there's actually a 'salon' for babies too.. so luxurious.. there's actually a small tv in front of the mirror to keep a child entertained, and toys to attract their attention.. met mrs gan, eunice and seetha in simei later the day... it's quite fun to be close to MOE officer.. now tt we're all not scholars anymore, mrs gan is more like a friend than a scholarship officer.. haha.. we even know wat kinda names she'll give her children.. just waiting for her to get pregnant only.. nv fail to ask whether she's pregnant or not everytime we meet her.. haha..

actually i realise that simei is not a very safe place.. haha.. have been walking back from the mrt alone for the past few nights.. always see groups of ah bengs/mats or bangladesh construction workers.. kinda scary.. but luckily the flat is not very far from the mrt.. so dun need to walk so much.. or maybe i shouldn't come back so late every night.. haha.. oh well, i only have few more days in s'pore.. have to spend time wisely.. hehe.. dun even know when will be the next time i'll be coming to s'pore again.. in a few months time?

it's been 378 days.. maybe it's time to let go cause i'm sick and tired of this waiting game.. can't u be less idiotic?