went for asean dance yesterday night... still very high now... haha... it was a very memorable night... my best asean dance out of the 5 tt i attended for the past 4 years... really the best one... was so happy to meet all my friends there.. those from my batch as well as junior batch... haven't seen some of them for quite some time... and met some idiots as well.. sigh.. can't avoid it anyway... all i could do was to ignore them... i went to there late cause i didn't wanna stone there for so long... thought it would be like one of those normal dance where i'll be stoning instead of dancing... but yesterday's dance was different from last year's... when i step into the ballroom i was already very excited.. it was at peninsula hotel... the first person i met was mrs gan... took some pictures with her... then went around meeting more ppl... was practically going around taking pictures, talking etc... then eunice told us tt she brought her paperboy cd... paperboy is supposed to be a presby hostel dance which was passed down to us after ppl from presby moved to dunman high hostel... we performed it 3 years in a row so eunice wanted to perform it another time... i wasn't prepared for it... if i knew tt we're gonna perform paperboy i would've wore jeans.. i was wearing my denim skirt.. but still danced with it anyway... hehe... luckily it was dark... haha... it was so cool... at first i was so scared tt i dun remember the steps... but after listening to the song everything just came back... did forget some sequence though... i couldn't do the last step cause of the skirt.. think i looked quite dumb... zee said i was the only one who didn't bend down... but i couldn't la... so sad... but really felt so good after the dance... haha.. it's something memorable... we're the last batch of ppl who knows how to dance paperboy alr... our junior batch nobody know... so sad tt the tradition ended at our batch... if i'm not mistaken it has been passed down by seniors 8 years ago? or maybe longer... but we're all in different hostel alr... so kinda difficult to teach...
then came slow dance... i was going around taking photos again when eunice ditched me to go dance with some ppl... jasmine aka jono, my 'boyfriend' who promised to dance with me was also busy dancing with some guy... was left alone... i was actually kinda thick face lar.. went around asking guys for flowers... haha... sigh.. sad enough most of them didn't even bother to buy me flower sia... tianglim even said tt he didn't wanna waste money to buy flower for me sia... so not gentleman... in the end jung seong and eddie shared to buy me a flower... haha... then i went to talked to another eunice.. eunice yap, not eunice au.. she was my ex-classmate from convent klang... so funny tt both of us end up in s'pore... come to think of it, she was my ex-classmate for 3 years... but wasn't really close to her... su san was also my ex-classmate in klang... haha... when i was talking to her, suddenly dodo came with another flower.. haha... so nice of him... even danced with him... =)
as usual, it'll always end with a round of fast dance... me, eunice, eddie, jungseong,eric and moh was dancing in a circle.... next to the vietnamese scholars... and as usual, tuan was flirting with the other girls... eunice and i actually pushed him to the centre of the circle cause he's tt kinda person who likes attention... he did some of his moves which was quite cool... even formed a line and was practically running around the whole dance floor... everybody was super high at tt point of time... the songs tt they played was very nice compared to last year... and i think the dj was good... better than last year's "asean, screamm!!!" i like most of the songs tt they played yesterday night... "lets get loud, lets get loud..." "who let the dogs out..." "i like to move it move it... " i think i was very crazy... screamed so much till i almost lost my voice... there was one point of time when hokito and phya was dancing next to us... they were so cute lar... haha... we were actually immitating hokito's moves... he didn't realise at first... haha... it took him quite long to realise tt the whole group of ppl next to him was actually following his steps... haha...
i didn't really want the night to end... but all good things must come to an end... eunice came over to stay at victoria hall.. haha.. i didn't know tt it's so easy to sneak ppl in the hostel... didn't really dare to sneak ppl in after i got confinement last year for bringing my classmate to my room... blergh... but yesterday the guard didn't really notice... so we were 'partying' again in my room... haha... was chatting, eating supper, playing cards, online, taking photos again etc... and guess wat???? i did something so so so silly tt i still couldn't forgive myself.... aaarrrrggggghhh... I ACCIDENTALLY DELETED ALL THE PHOTOS IN MY CAMERA!!!!!!!!! so silly of me... feel like i'm the stupidest person on earth... really feel so so so dumb... my whole night of pictures all gone... was so happy tt i managed to take so many pictures and i deleted everything in one second.... feel like killing myself man.... sigh... so sad.... so so so sad... it hurts so much... all the precious photos... my picture with mrs gan, zee, eunice, jono, fei, armando, jo, tuan, allan, monic, hokito, phya, eunice yap, yolanda, tianglim, su san, stephen etc etc... all gone sia... feel like crying man... *sobz* luckily eunice have some group photos... plus i asked zee to get from freddy's camera... zee even volunteered to compile pictures from jono, fei and afi for me... just tt those photos tt i took with ppl who didn't have camera all gone... i'm an idiot... real idiot... sigh... but after tt we started taking photos again... in the room... haha... guess those pictures are the only ones tt i have with me now... have to wait till those ppl send me those pictures...

i volunteered to sit at the pt for college day.. i think it was more meaningful to sit at the pt than at the hall.. heard tt the whole hall was like a gambling den... haha.. pt got nice seats and air-con.. actually slept for a while... sigh.. my aim now is not to get 10 distinctions or anything lar... i just wan my 4As can alr... maybe s paper, hmm.. 2 merits? haha... but fat hope... haven't worked on those 2 s papers at all... went to mingli's house before coll day... was playing piano with daryl and zi cheng... haha... had a mini 'k-box' session with piano in tt small room... haha... slacked the whole afternoon there... continue teaching daryl canon... he can really pick up damn fast.. why is everyone learning canon? haha... it's like some s41 thing... started with jess and xingqi last year.. now daryl and zi cheng also learning... then went to mandarin gardens to eat dinner... didn't know tt they have a restaurant in tt condo.. wth, have been staying next to it for so long... now only found out..the food at the restaurant was quite nice and cheap.. will go there more often... hehe...
oh, dad bought a new car for my bro.. he sold off mum's old honda for this new perodua my vi.. some msia made car... it's the car tt i like so much.. haha.. cheap and nice... haha.. but bro dun seem to like it very much... i understand why also... the car is more suitable for female drivers.. i hate to admit this but it's more suitable for female drivers who generally have shorter legs.. haha.. the car is quite small actually... and my bro has super long legs... so, when i go back after A's i can drive the car! haha... ask him to get a new car? haha.. and leave the car for me... can't wait to get my driving liscense... have been waiting for 2 yrs... it'll be the first thing tt i'm gonna get when i go back end of the year! wheee....

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blergh... i can't write in malay... sound so funny... haha... but still in the malay mode after yesterday's malay debate... sorrie for those who dun understand.. for those who understand, dun laugh if u spot any mistakes.. haha... have to forgive ppl like me who haven't wrote anything in malay for 2 yrs.. haha...

so bored of studying... sigh.. stoning in the com lab in sch lib.. haha.. slacking.. waiting for time to pass.. cause i'm attending suang's malay debate finals today.. haha.. haven't really attend any debate competitions except for those debate tat cikgu zain always conduct during lessons.. so dunno how it'll be like.. but just going to support suang.. hope she'll get her best speaker title... =) dun even know whether i'll understand the debate.. i haven't been listening to ppl speak malay for sooooo long... haha... i doubt i can even speak one sentence without stumbling or sounding awkward.. haha... i'm lousy la... my own national language.. haha.. supposed to be 'good' at it.. i always wonder how i got my A1 for O lvls.. haha... i still think it's a miracle... ironically, malay is one of my favourite subject back then in TK... maybe it's just cikgu zain.. he's so nice... miss his lessons...

oh crap... went in class for physics then stupid kwek told me, "yeanching, u better buck up... i was very shocked to see your results.. you need to work extremely hard..." blergh... make me super stress only.. stupid kwek.. i'm alr so stressed out by my own results he dun need to make it worse right? how? haven't start revising year 1 stuff.. have been rushing all my tutorials these few days.. maybe should start revising year 1 stuff soon... and i haven't touched any of the s paper stuff.. esp maths... sigh... STRESSSSSSSSSS... but it's ok..like wat miss su said, we all need some stress to perform.. hope i can tahan till end of the year... jia you yeanching!

went for SAJC dance concert on sat.. it was super good.. nv regret going for 2 yrs consecutively although i dunno anyone in SA dance.. haha.. still worth the money... met a lot of ppl there.. quee ee, stayed overnight at eunice's place with reren, sherly and iput.. haha... was supposed to play bridge the whole night but i was super tired.. fell asleep around 2am.. haha.. it was fun to hang ard with them.. dun really get the chance to hang ard since we live in diff hostels... then came back hostel ard 530pm the next day.. spent more than 24 hrs out of the hostel.. hmm.. i know i'm supposed to be on mugging mode but my weekends seem to be booked.. this coming weekend got career fair and ASEAN dance! haha.. can't wait.. gonna meet old friends again! yay! zee says she's gonna dress up in pink from top to bottom.. so just wait and see.. i wonder how freddy's gonna dress up to match her.. haha.. for me, still dunno wat to wear.. hmm.. obviously not pink from top to bottom... still very tempted to wear black although the theme is 'zebra's out' ie, no black and white... haha..

played to the max yesterday.. played badminton during pe... then was in the hall for the cultural fiesta thingy.. realised tt it was my first time attending such stuff in s'pore.. most of the time during national day i would be at home... co's performance was just so spectacular.. the guy playing the drums was super zai... the other performances were quite lame lar.. then went for the silicon valley adventure sharing session... it was a very enriching session.. they showed us a lot of pictures.. one of it was a swimming pool that can only fit one person... it has somewhat a 'threadmill' kinda feature.. haha.. kinda cool... but i dun understand why they need such technology especially in US where there's abundant land... after that sharing session i went for shooting competition! haha... it was super fun... was using the air pistol.. the first few shots were super taiko.. especially when my hand is so shaky... but overall score was not so bad.. haha.. got 52 points! haha.. i saw the other participant's marks.. only got few ppl got higher than 52.. haha.. liuyan say i got the 'potential'.. haha.. after shooting, got nothing to do, went and try rock climbing with daryl, zicheng and xingqi.. ok, i'm not good at rock climbing.. couldn't take it after few steps... blame it on the short hands and legs plus the weak arms... after tt we were playing piano outside lt5.. was teaching daryl how to play canon.. then i bathed, ate dinner and went for piano concert... the concert was quite ok.. was very impressed by this piece by 2 alumni.. i think they composed the song themselves.. super cool.. with background music somemore... eunice olsen and calin's performance were great too.. very spontaneous and it was something different from the rest of the performance.. the piano was just the accompaniment to calin's singing... i think the whole concert too much classical songs.. it was too formal for a school concert.. "ladies and gentleman, please do not scream for your friends... there're other ways to show your appreciation, like applauding.. *clap clap clap.." i believe they can have more variations... there's so many things you can do with piano... can go with so many other instruments.. like guitar, violin, even harmoc.. haha... just too much of the same kinda tune during the first half of the performance... was kinda surprised tt there was only 1 solo piece.. the rest were all duets... the best is still from the guest performers... and kheechun's piece.. i believe it was the last concert tt i would attend in vj this year... i think i've spent too much of concerts... but it's ok, nv really regret going to any... at least i tried to attend most of the concerts tt any friend asked me to go... cause i understand the feeling when ppl give u stupid and lame excuses for not attending your concert...
was chatting with sis on the phone yesterday night... was a very long long chat... 1.5 hrs.. i think mummy will scream when she sees the bill... hehe.. but talked abt a lot of things.. she made me realise a lot of things.. i felt kinda guilty.. how could i just be so inconsiderate and selfish? sigh.. i dun understand myself also.. i really need to make up my mind on what i want and work towards it.. i can't let my parents worry so much abt me..
oh, i got back all my blocktest papers.. i 'ACED' my test! haha.. worst set of results ever.. i think i really have to concentrate on studies.. i dun wan this kinda results for prelims and A's.. i'm on mugging mode on weekdays.. but my weekends are just so occupied.. so still haven't reach the full mugging mode yet.. but i was very happy cause i got 55 for gp! haha... my best gp results so far.. haha.. 10 marks higher than promos.. yay! but have to work harder for prelims..
anyway, i'm going for SAJC dance concert today.. so excited! haha.. i believe it would be another interesting concert... haha.. gonna stay overnight at eunice's place after the concert.. hehe.. yay!

i see history repeating in front of my eyes.. how can i stop it from happening? i dunno how to help.. i dunno wat to do...

after 3.5 years, i'm still asking myself, wat am i doing in s'pore? hmm.. was feeling kinda miserable after gp lesson today.. gp tutor talked abt foreign scholars using s'pore as a stepping stone.. although she directed this 'claim' towards the china students, i feel that it is unfair for her to make this kinda claim.. and she insisted that it is true.. there was a slight debate btwn my gp tutor and one prc scholar from my class abt this whole topic on foreign scholars.. that gp tutor question the purpose of having scholars since we're only making s'pore as a stepping stone and will leave after we get watever we want.. bla bla bla... sigh.. all these while i thought tt she's somebody who's wise enough to be able to understand the kinda life tt we, as foreign scholars in this kiasu and competitive country, are going through... but i realise tt she's just the same as most of the s'poreans.. they just look at it as foreign scholars using the country's resources, ppl paying taxes to fund the education of these ppl who're taking up spaces of the locals etc etc... who will sympathise us who're currently trapped in this country? being put under enormous stress, receiving allowance tt's enough for nothing? they think tt the govt is being very generous cause they're giving us allowance.. $200 a month to cover all other cost inclusive of food, transport, misc fees, etc... with the supposed high standard of living in s'pore, they expect us to survive with the little amt of money.. they're practically 'paying' us the minimum amt for us to study here.. like wat fongkai always say, we're moe's slaves. being paid to study.. we have to fulfill their requirement, to ace in studies, let s'poreans have a chance to interact with ppl of diff culture, build 'ties' with ppl from other countries bla bla bla... or else, they can send u a letter to terminate your scholarship and just change your life completely... frankly, how many ppl really appreciate the existence of scholars in s'pore? i think i'll agree with that gp tutor with one point, the govt should just stop recruiting scholars... they should stop ruining other ppl's lives.. these china scholars have to potential to do better if they're elsewhere.. although i hate those 'pereks', i salute them for their perserverance, determination as well as diligence.. i've seen how they studied.. yup, u can say that their language use is bad, but, they really started from scratch.. s'poreans took their whole life to learn the english language and u expect a prc to be perfect in english in just 2 yrs? and not all prcs are weak in english.. she haven't seen those prcs in rj.. sigh.. i think it's just a waste bringing in scholars if the whole society doesn't think tt it's beneficial.. they just see it as an insecurity.. and wat am i doing here? wasting my time trying to fit in the ppl here.. it's just so difficult.. there'll still be a barrier btwn s'poreans and foreign scholars.. i've tried to break tt 'barrier' but to me, that 'barrier' would always be there... or maybe it's just me.. i can't interact well with s'proeans.. sigh.. will this be my 'life' for at least another 8 years? stuck in this place? wat happened to my plans? all seem to be gone... wat am i supposed to do? how am i suppose to continue this journey through life? i know my parents want me to stay in s'pore, no matter how i tried to hint to them that i dun wanna stay... whenever i try to tell mum abt uni, she'll always end the whole conversation with, "finish A lvls first only say, dun need to think so much abt uni at this point of time," or "u'll save your dad's wallet if u stay in s'pore, u've been surviving well in s'pore after 4 yrs so why not continue?" it's exactly the same kinda reaction when i told her tt i didn't wanna stay for jc.. and it'll always be like tt.. yup, i know... i'll still be in spore next yr... i can't be so selfish.. i can't just say i wanna go overseas and ask my father to fork out one whole sum of money to finance my education.. my sister still needs to complete her CLP (a 1 yr course after her law degree), my brother just went to uni last year... 4 more years of uni education for him... i can understand why my parents think that i should stay in s'pore cause they think that stress and 'not liking the place' are not valid reasons..

went out with the whole bunch of vs guys today... lieojiun came back from uk, came down to s'pore to visit us.. so went out for dinner with them.. and as usual, the guys will bully me cause i'll be the most bulliable one around... luckily vino didn't come.. traumatised by him.. haven't talked to him since the last time i saw him... tuan was making fun of me because of the thing tt happened the last time we had such a gathering.. he kept on saying, 'maybe we should stop disturbing her or not she'll cry again.. ' but i think i sort of got used to all these alr... i'm just pissed with vino.. as long as vino is not around i'm ok with the rest... vino + lieojiun + tuan = disaster... i'll nv go out with them if all 3 of them are ard..

sigh, consequences of not getting a silver award for napfa test, retake! damn.. wth, even if i retake the test i won't cross tt 165 mark.. have to struggle to even get a bronze for this stupid standing broad jump.. sigh.. and retaking napfa means, taking all 6 items again.. waste time sia.. when ppl get to be exempted from pe i have to go take napfa test.. the rest of the class get to play floorball today.. but me and daphne had to go for 'training' with tt fella with damn healthy grandma.. i wan to play games... depriving me of playing games.. i dun mind playing any type of games lar, was so looking forward to playing badminton or squash.. sigh.. i dun care abt 3rd period.. not gonna attend at all.. just gonna take tt stupid test another time..

oh, today is cindy's bday! happy bday! =) went to her room at 12am... she was alr sleeping! but we woke her up.. haha.. cause wanna give her the present tt we did.. haha.. i like the pillow so much! didn't wanna give it to her.. haha.. but it's ok, i shall go her room more often to hug it! then we took a lot of crazy photos.. haha... made so much noise.. luckily mr tan nv come out and scold us sia.. haha.. then went to swensons for ice cream after sch... me, dodo and vidia shared an earthquake.. so nice.. yummie.. then went to marine parade library to mug alone.. nobody wanted to accompany me.. so sad.. it's quite good to mug there.. except tt it was too cold! nv bring jacket and i was wearing shorts somemore.. was practically freezing.. think i'll go there more often to mug.. have been mugging alone for the past few days.. mostly in sch library after sch.. nobody accompany me to mug sia.. so sad... must find a mugging partner..

went home last weekend for grandpa's prayers... met a lot of family members, inclusive of real family members and ppl who claim to be part of the family.. but wat da heck, my family is damn big. my grandfather have 9 brothers, dunno how many sisters, my dad have 7 brothers and 4 sisters.. and i have around 50 first cousins, dun dare to count the no of 2nd cousins, more than 10 nieces and nephews... was asking my sister who was the little girl with my cousin and my sister said, "oh, tt's her daughter.." i was like, omg, the last time i saw the little girl was when she was 1 month old.. now she can run around and talk alr... the whole house was super filled, everywhere u go u see ppl, familiar and even unfamiliar ones... i whole bunch of kids also.. some cute, some irritating! i think the best 2 are eddie and amy, my niece and nephew.. both of them are twins.. around 2 yrs old i think.. so fun to play with.. quite clever.. he's so cute... so fun to have a pair of twins...

got back some block test paper.. sigh.. got an E for physics.. sigh.. so low.. my physics grade have been deteriorating, from A for mid years, C for promos and now E for block test. does it mean tt i'm gonna drop by another 2 grades for prelim and get F? haha.. haven't got back chem and econs. but got 13/30 for econs case study.. blergh.. hope essay can help pull up the marks.. got prelim time table alr.. sigh.. dun really have time to revise...

my little brother and I..  

had my first lesson after 6 weeks of break... sucks.. realise tt this term is gonna be damn rush.. every tutors rushing to finish syllabus... means no more slacking... 8 weeks to prelims... around 5 months to A lvls... =S

got back maths paper... sigh.. got a B. predicted anyway... but maybe can get A after adding the marks for 3-d trigo online assessment.. haha.. tt was crap.. didn't know tt it can help me improve my grade... asked yuan lun to do for me somemore.. haha.. then got back econs mcq... 20/30.. tt's the class average.. hope essay can help to get at least a C? haha.. but fat hope.. case study will definitely bring down overall score...

whee... got my passport! haha... told the matron tt i'm gonna 'open back account'.. haha.. and i'm leaving this thurs! hope i dun get into any trouble.. nv apply for this leave cause mrs chan will most likely not approve after eddie's incident.. will skip 2 days of school.. will still go to sch on thurs...

huiyi is back from uk.. but she's in brunei.. haha.. can't wait to see her again.. and lieojiun.. think they'll visit s'pore soon.. and huiyi said tt lj wanna make me go out with tuan... =S crap.. means another round of bullying.. still remember the last time vino made me cry in front of the whole group of guys.. damn paiseh... nope, i won't join them if vino is around.. i'm still quite pissed... oh, and huiyi warned.. "oh ..i warn you first ah, lj hasn't been disturbing ppl much in uk, so when he visits .. i think he'll be a hyper-bully" not a good sign... haha.. but it's always fun having them around.. miss those times in dunman...

exams are finally over.. haven't been blogging for so many days cause of the hostel connection and also my virus infected laptop.. have been thinking bout a lot of things for the past few days.. a lot of things happened.. dunno where to start also.. after chem paper on thurs, went out with the class to watch movie.. watched war of the worlds... it was nice.. but a bit gruesome.. then was slacking at subway from 6 to 10pm.. haha.. then when i was walking to the bus stop to go back got a call from a friend. she told me tt her scholarship was terminated.. sigh.. i didn't know wat to say.. she's a very close friend.. didn't know wat to say, didn't know how to react.. i guess i'm just a lousy friend. dunno wat to do.. just kept queit throughout the phone call.. suddenly felt so traumatised... i saw 3 other close friends lose their scholarship.. now the 4th one.. and i've seen how this changed those 3 ppl's lives.. completely.. and i feel like i didn't do my part as a friend to help them cope with the changes that they had to face. sigh.. i'm such a lousy friend. arrgghh.. helped tt friend to move out of her hostel on sat.. met her parents.. i guess it's difficult for the whole family to have to face this. there would be more burden. financially especially. i realised tt i have to be more thrifty. i've been living in my own world for so long. dun really know wat it is like to be in a family facing financial problems. maybe i should change the way i spend my money and try to live completely on the allowance tt i get from my scholarship. seems impossibe though. maybe i should cut down on my phone bill first. after helping her to move to her uncle's place and also unpacking all her stuff, was so tired till i fell asleep on the couch. so paiseh.. hehe.. then went for dinner with her parents. then went back to chinese high hostel. was so tired and lazy to come back to my own hostel, so i decided to stay overnight at chinese high hostel. hehe.. i think it was my 4 time staying there i think. the security not tight at all.. or i was too pro to sneak in.. haha.. all 4 times was unplanned. so i had to borrow ppl's things.. haha... borrowed iput's shirt, yessica's shorts, shampoo, bath gel, contact lens case and solution, some prc's handphone charger... haha.. eunice treated us to pizza for supper! haha.. went to quee ee's room.. haha.. she wasn't in cause she went back to klang.. so i put a note on her mirror.. haha.. hope she saw it.. then went and disturb jono.. haha... she's a super funny 'boyfriend'.. very nice person to hang around with.. haha.. was so tired tt i fell asleep on reren's bed when jono was still in the room.. oops.. came back the next morning and slept the whole day.. still feeling very lethargic. went out with exclassmates from tk today. emma, mingyun, xinyi, simin.. haven't met them for so long.. feel so nice to hang around with them again.. was talking bout stuff tt happened during our tk times.. haha.. miss johara, mr conner, miss ho, mrs loke-yeo and her suspension, abraham's promise etc.. miss those times.. gonna organise a 4/4 outing soon.. haha.. hope more ppl can join us.. took the same bus back with vanessa.. was nv really close to her in tk but she's such a friendly person.. so much things to talk about.. haha.. eddie was on the same bus also.. he thought we were 'best' friends.. haha.. then went out for dinner with eddie cause it was alr 8pm when we reached the hostel... and the 4 days holidays are over.. have to go back to sch tmr.. sigh.. but this 4 days feels more like holidays than the june hols.. guess after today it would be mugging all the way... 5 more months..

was talking to mum on the phone.. was talking bout uni and stuff.. then she said 'i think it would be best if u stay in s'pore for uni.. it would save everyone the trouble esp your dad's wallet." this means tt i'm stuck in s'pore for the rest of my life.. crap... 4 yrs of uni + 4 yrs of bond... i would be around 27/28 yrs old.. sigh.. just feel tt my parents are not listening to me.. they have the right to worry bout the cost of studying overseas, so their solution is stay in s'pore. crap.. they nv seem to care whether i like it here or not. nv asked whether i'm doing fine here or not. they nv even ask whether i like it in s'pore or not. they just assume tt i'm doing fine here cause everything is going fine. good results, good life, no problems... when i tell my mum tt i'm super stressed here she would just say tt everyone is stressed. she just dun understand.. sigh.. i've tried to tell her tt i dun wanna stay in s'pore after A lvls. but, sigh.. no use.. after quarreling with her so many times her conclusion would still be s'pore. cause it's close to home, cheaper, dun need to consider so much things.. crap.. so irritating.. looks like the ending would still be NUS. lets wait and see what will happen next year.. 5 more months...